how often do you think about sex
was his answer
when i flat out asked     how often

he considers offing himself     trying to grasp
the emptiness     he has but can’t feel
is like trying to memorize a kiss

something about love & failure     we walk
into a sunset
but never reach the sun

he says it’s a question     that coats you
he says he’s covered in it
it’s like a bad joke that sucks     the air out of a room
and the room is your mind
and the bad joke is your mind

there’s a boy trapped at the bottom of a well
there’s a dog that ran away from home
there’s a mother who has just lost her son in a crowd

choose one and still be all three
choose one and still be none

his beard scratches     a broom
on the dusty garage floor
his bottom lip has a gnocchi mouthfeel
the temperature of red wine warmed
by the hand on the glass that holds it

if you ask me what his kiss is like
i will scrape the sky of my skull
if you ask me if i’d die for him     i’ll answer

i think about sex all the time

Robert Andrew Perez lives in West Oakland and is an associate editor & book designer for speCt, where he also curates readings. His first book, the field, was nominated for the Northern California Book Award.  More at

speCt books was founded in 2012 and operates out of Oakland California.  We print chapbooks, fine art, ephemera, and OAR, a journal of poetry.  In 2018 we begin printing full-length collections of poetry.